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A Two Edged Sword

Yesterday was a very strange day for me emotionally. I found myself swinging from one end of the scale to the other and, at times, feeling both happy and sad at the same time.

My son turned 18 yesterday on the 4th and, first of all, I'd like to thank raettawy for her wonderful cheesecake recipe. Why? Because my son loves it so much he told me that he wanted it as his birthday cake! As I love it myself, I certainly didn't argue with him, so a cheesecake birthday cake it was!

Anyone who wants this recipe, you'll find it here:

He only wanted a small get together so we had 10 of his friends over plus his girlfriend (even though it was a weeknight) and a lovely time was had by all. It's been raining here for a week or so, so rather than having a barbeque, I decided to move it out from under my back verandah to make more room and to roast a turkey and make a couple of salads and for dessert we had birthday cheesecake and I also made a tiramasu. They all raved about the food, which was gratifying, and I now have the task of writing out both the cheesecake and tiramisu recipes for quite a few of them! They've all asked me to thank you, raettawy, and to tell you that your cheesecake is 'wicked good'! (You're a bit of a legend now - LOL!)

Since 18 is the legal drinking age here and all of the guests were of age, there was alcohol and even though these are all sensible kids, as a precaution I made lots of nibblies and kept their tummies full in the hopes that may slow them down a bit and between that and the fact that, as I said, they're all sensible kids, they got squiffy but not over the top drunk. They all slowed down the drinking towards the end of the night and all were pretty much sober by the time they left and, as no one was driving, I didn't have to confiscate any car keys. I was very proud of my son and the others for their behaviour and, to top it off, they cleaned up! This is highly unusual for an 18th birthday party, so I consider myself very lucky. I must say, it was a very pleasant surprise - they all knew how sick I'd been and didn't want to put any strain on me (apart from the cooking, which I enjoyed but did take its toll on me). I steered clear for most of the evening, not wanting to cramp their style, but they insisted  I  join them about half way in, and all made a big fuss of me, saying how worried they'd been for me when I was in hospital and how much they appreciated me putting on a good spread etc- quite touching, it was. I sat and had a beer with my son - another strange sensation - it seems like only yesterday he was in nappies and now here I am, having a beer with him! He's always been a good kid and now I'm getting to see how good a man he's becoming. He's going to be one hell of a good man if he keeps going the way he is now.

It was, however, a very bittersweet day for me, as I also got the news that my brother was in hospital and had been diagnosed with lymphatic cancer. I kept it from my son til today as I didn't want to ruin his birthday, but it was hard at times to keep my happy face on, I can tell you.

I haven't been able to talk to him yet as he was asleep every time I tried to call yesterday and today, but he knows I tried as the nurse told him. I'll be trying again tomorrow and I should get through. It's a conversation I both want and dread - I don't want to blub while I'm on the phone with him and I hope I manage not to.

I'll only be able to ring him for now as I won't be able to visit him until the weekend because I'm booked in for a test myself on Friday and it requires three days of a purge prep, so I'll be housebound (and loo-bound) til Friday afternoon and then doped up for the test, so not allowed to drive for at least twelve hours afterwards.

I don't know how advanced it is yet and whether he'll be able to be treated, but we are all hoping it's at a stage where there's a chance of successful treatment. He's in a lot of pain at the moment and is having trouble breathing, which doesn't fill me with hope. Knowing my brother, he may have had symptoms for quite a while and not mentioned them to his doctor - you know how some men are. All of the family are rallying around him, so at least he's not feeling like he's not loved or cared about, but he must be so very worried and scared.

My brother is three years younger than me and he hasn't always been kind to his body in the past and although he's been on the right path for many years now, he has suffered the consequences, health-wise, in recent years. This, however, was completely unexpected by all of us.

I'm so very sad and worried for him and I'm hoping with all my might that there's a good outcome from this.



( 5 comments — Leave a comment )
Mar. 5th, 2014 09:52 pm (UTC)
Happy Birthday to A and there was always a very good chance he'd turn out well. Look at his mum to see why.
My good wishes, thoughts and prayers are with you and your brother. Hopefully he has the constitution of his sister and will be around for some time to come.
Mar. 6th, 2014 04:02 am (UTC)
Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry to hear about your brother. That's such sad news.

I'm glad to hear though that your son's birthday party was a success. I get the feeling you are an amazing cook, DL.
Mar. 6th, 2014 10:46 am (UTC)
I was down your way a couple of weeks back. I finally bit the bullet and visited Sydney, something I'd wanted to do for years but admittedly no one lived there so it didn't happen. But then I thought that perhaps I should make a trip out to Lithgow and this time, it did not happen. Perhaps it was for the best as I was not in Sydney for long (I really did bugger up the timing) and by the sounds of it, you have not been well to receive visitors.

I really do want to stop off your way one day. I loved Sydney (not bad for someone from Victoria! ;-) ) and am looking forward to seeing more of it, but if I do get down, I'd love to set aside a day and make the trip out into the Blue Mountains.

I hope everything works out for your brother. How awful that it was around the same time as your son's 18th. I think good country kids are like that though, so I am not really surprised that they cleaned up. Especially if you have not been well for which, I'm afraid, I have been completely unaware (it's been a while since I've been on LJ).

I hope whatever you're going through improves as I hope it does with your brother.

Take care of yourself.

~ R. xo
Mar. 7th, 2014 03:38 am (UTC)
Oh my gosh. I'm so sorry to hear about your brother! So many hugs from this side of the world. Hang in there, lady. More hugs. Are you doing better healthwise?

Happy birthday to your son! It sounded like a great time. I would imagine it would be a little weird to have a beer with your kid. Here the drinking age is 21. I admit it's a little weird to drink with one's parents as well. lol. I'm glad they liked the cheesecake. "Wicked good"- what, are they all from Boston? lol. We say "wicked good" in New England, too. How fun. :^) I'd better make sure that entry is unlocked! lol.
Mar. 9th, 2014 11:27 am (UTC)
Just caught up on this. Happy birthday to your amazing son! But I am so sorry to hear the news of your brother. Bloody hell. Bloody, bloody hell, DL.

If this can be conquered by strength alone, I know you will do it, as you have more strength than us all combined.

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